I Fell Asleep
But be sure of this, that if the head of the house had known at what time of the night the thief was coming, he would have been on the alert and would not have allowed his house to be broken into. For this reason you also must be ready; for the Son of Man is coming at an hour when you do not think He will.
I must have fallen asleep when the pastors, teachers and prophets were warning me about the things to come. Why am I in the condition I’m in currently and don’t recognize the world I live in, how things have changed. Christ warned that there would be false teachers, etc, in these last days. I started letting up a little here and a little there and before I knew it, my faith had been compromised. I’ve accepted the secular music because it brings back good memories and try to sing along to the new gospel music and don’t understand the meaning and/or theology behind most of it. I must have fallen asleep and years of understanding has passed me by. I’ve shaken myself and don’t seem to come out of it completely. It’s like the neighbors dog is waking me up with it’s barking. I wonder if it’s an intruder. When the barking stops, I fall back to sleep.
Therefore, be on the alert—for you do not know when the master of the house is coming, whether in the evening, at midnight, or when the rooster crows, or in the morning— in case he should come suddenly and find you asleep.
Prayer has always been a way of life for me. When things happen in a bad or negative way, I spent time with him in intercessory prayer. I remember the nights when I would spend hours calling on God to answer prayer, laboring as a woman would in child birth. Hours were spent in prayer asking God to touch my family and rescue them from the enemy. Time has been spent with schooling, getting ahead on the job, raising a family and all the other things that has consumed years of my time. My children are grown, they have children and they have children. I fell asleep. I pray a prayer over the meals and a “now I lay me sown to sleep” prayer and find it exhausting.
I slowly have let the politicians pass laws that would take away my rights as a citizen and religious freedoms as well. I feel asleep at the watch. My excuse is that the government can never do that. I laughed when prayer was in the process of being removed from school. Surely abortion can never happen in our society, after all we are a christian nation and that would never happen. Now millions of lives are taken by abortion each year. Now my question is not if I have fallen asleep but when did I fall asleep.
Romans 13:11, NIV: “And do this, understanding the present time: The hour has already come for you to wake up from your slumber, because our salvation is nearer now than when we first believed.”
I awake and fall back to sleep. I pray a short prayer of forgiveness and fall back to sleep. How can I ascend to the mountain of the Lord? How can I stand in his holy place again? Psa 23:3. I want to awake. Not to satisfy and soothe my conscience but to be a watchman of the night. This forced stay-at-home has stirred my spirit and I want to be brave and bold to share the gospel with love and help lead family and friends to the truth. As I awake, there is still sleep in my eyes; I don’t have a clear head yet, the threat of sleep is still present. Someone please sound the alarm. Awake me from my sleep. Don’t be afraid to speak truth to me to get me back on the right path.
I fell asleep.